no matter what, you got to hang in there, you hear me??!??! :(

I wish I could hug you and tell you things will be alright
But deep down inside I'm all confused and afraid.
Confuse as to how to talk to you
and Afraid that you will leave me so soon.

All I could do now is to pray and cry to myself from afar
I really wished things are gonna be okay.
I know you will have to leave someday
but I wasn't expecting it to be so sudden.

I want to talk to you
but I know even before I start, tears will just flow.
I guess I just don't tell you enough
How much you mean to me and how much I love you.

You were like a mum to me
A friend who I can talk to and be comfortable with.
I don't want to to lose you
because I don't know how to deal with it.

I tell myself its for the better if you really needed to go
but I cant convince my heart and mind to accept that
I really hope you'll be alright
Because if you do leave, I really don't know how I'll deal with it
I really have no clue how to.

Maybe denial will help me for now...

God, if you hear my cries
Please make everything alright.