I owe you this post and my heartfelt thanks for revealing how much You loved and remembered me even when I strayed away and choose to lead life my own way. I can say this is one of the lowest spiritual downfall I've been through. Being indifferent is the worse emotion one can feel in this circumstance. Though its a slow process to get back up and going, being away from a community of friends who could build and pick me up when I fall makes it even harder to return back to You but You definitely have a way with me. You know my soft spot and You know how I'm like, thankfully. Thank You for what I felt and experienced on sat during mass. It was a magical moment. You changed and moved me quietly and gently. Looking at the cross reminded me of how much you loved me and how much you are willing to go through for me. No one can go through what You've been through for the name of love, definitely. The songs sung during mass also emphasize your everlasting love. Love was definitely the theme on sat.
You know, I really had no idea how to rebuild the r/s I had with You after sliding all the way down to pit bottom but one thing I forgot is you still had a string attached on me which is connected to you. You were pulling the string upwards when i was sliding downwards. You were always there. I've nothing great to offer to You this season of lent but I offer You my broken spirit and heart. Take it and use it as You will. This lent will be journey for me to slowly return back to you. To rebuild this relationship again. I hope this is sufficient for You. :)
