Call it fortunate for what, i have had the oppotunity to have a glismpe and read through some of the University Work stuff. hahah! First it was about religion VS technology and some online religion thing. Secondly, some Literature stuff which i have totally no clue what was being mentioned in the article. Oh well.. Maybe my time isnt there yet. : )

For now, I shall just settle myself and do what i need to do right now which is to clear the first obstacle in my path to Uni. Whether I do eventually make it through the 1st Stage, we'll just have to wait and see..

When You Believe

Many nights we've prayed
With no proof anyone could hear
In our hearts a hopeful song
We barely understood
Now we are not afraid
Although we know there's much to fear
We were moving mountains
Long before we knew we could

Chorus:
There can be miracles
When you believe
Though hope is frail
It's hard to kill
Who knows what miracles
You can achieve
When you believe
Somehow you will, (Now you will (3rd Chorus through))
You will when you believe

In this time of fear
When prayer so often proves in vain
Hope seemed like the summer birds
Too swiftly flown away
Yet now I'm standing here
My heart's so full, I can't explain
Seeking faith and speaking words
I never thought I'd say

Chorus

So in times when all your hope is gone
And you go through life afraid
In your heart there lies a hopeful song
That is there to guide the way
And all the hurt and all the pain
You soon will learn was not in vain
For all your prayers, they will be heard
They'll come to pass through faith

Chorus

Someday i'll realise... i will

Its really not easy. In fact its one of the most difficult *thing which you need to overcome, in order to succeed. Its not going to be easy and it was not easy but i guess i will have to go through it somehow.

14 more days which mean 2 more weeks! Its drawing nearer and nearer every second, min, hours. I just pray that i will have the strength to give my best shot at it. I know if i believe and still have this glispme of hope, no matter how tiny it might be, i might be able to pull through this and hopefully everything will turn out well.

I know God has a plan for me, a perfect one in fact. i just hope i will be able to coordinate well with him and do my best. : )

*In all that you do, give thanks and praises to the Almighty because he has done marvous! : )

GOD I OFFER ALL OF THESE TO YOU!! : )

I don't think i am ready to face whatever that is drawing near really soon
I dont think i have been treating God fairly. (Duh!)
I dont think i have been leading a good christian life.
I dont think i deserve the grace and help from God but i really need his help.

I think i am heading for straight.........
I think i am in deep trouble
I think leading a life with no goal or aim can be rather disturbing and frightening especially when....
I think i can no longer hold on anymore.



I am thankful for

-God because no matter how unworthy or distant i am from him, he always call me back to him and he just keep calling and calling and calling. But what on earth am i doing?? I have no idea! All i know is deep down in my heart, i really really love him and wish i could give everything i have to him. All my fears, doubts, weaknesses, disillusions, unworthiness etc etc. Basically all those negative aspect of my life and me.

-My family because they are there all the time although i hardly speak to them lately.

-My Godma for always being there for me and for her constant reassurance and reminders. She never fails to help me out whenever i needed her. : ) oh yes... My friend and I had a mini discussion today and we concluded that Godmas are the best being in the world! : D I LOVE HER MUCH!!!!!!!!!

-Rock. She is one of a kind who will go all out for her friends. A friend who cares unconditionally, gives without hesistation and understand without explanation. She never fails to make me a happier person. Although its been a short while, it seems like i've known her for years! If there is a friend i am gratful for today and everyday, it will have to be her! :)

- ALL MY FRIENDS!! : ) Without them, life will be totally different.

I now fully understand and comprehend how difficult and harsh reality of life can be. It is only because of those special people in your life that allows you to walk through all these. It definitely will be one which is full of challenges, obstacles and trials but it is in overcoming them that makes life more accomplished and meaningful. I know it is easily said that done and giving up or escaping might be an easier way out. However, we werent born to be weaklings. We or at least I have to be strong and clear-headed to face it courageously.

I never felt this way before. So lost, So tired, So worn out... I am going in circle and heading no where. If only dreams can be reality. Things would and definitely will be so much better and life will be easier to bear.. I want to rest, rest, rest and have more rest.. BUT i know i cant.

Pearl, maybe it is time you wake up and face reality. It may not be an easy one but you have chosen it and you have no choice but to go through it. Not only go through it, but go through it emerging a stronger person with the endless graces and love from God.

What a way to start a brand new week! hhaha. I went to school feeling terribly sleepy and at the end of the day, i landed myself with a nasty headache. Right now i have no mood for work! sigh.. I really hope the week will get better as it progresses. I really think its Monday blues. I really hate Monday the most as compared to the rest of the days. Maybe i should adopt this mindset that
Mon- its the beginning of the week. If you looking forward to the end, it have to begin if not it will never come to an end
Tues- Mon has past and its tues. one more day to Wed which happens to be the middle of the week
Wed- Its the middle of the week! YAY! 2 more days 2 more days
Thurs- Its 1 more day to Fri. just hang in there. I'm sure I'll be able to!! Come on Pearl!!
Fri- YAYAYAYAYAYAYAY!!! TGIF!

hahaha! hopefully with this in mind, i'll be able to make it through this week! : )

God. I need you in my life! Help me through each and every moment.

{You never let me go through it all!}

Its a sun and i'm home! : ) my first sun at home after a long while. its great to be home though. i chanced upon a website and decided to take their quiz and the result was rather scary but i guess true to a small extent.. Sigh.. Maybe afterall i am really not.... ok Nvm.. I'll just persevere on and see what happen at the end of the year. Hopefully its not a dead end.

I can show you the world
shining, shimmering, spendid
tell me princess, now when
did you last let your heart decide

I can open your eyes
take you wonder by wonder
over sideways and under
on a magic carpet ride

A whole new world
a new fantastic point of view
no one to tell us no or where to go
or say we're only dreaming

A whole new world
a dazzling place I never knew
but when I'm way up here
it's crystal clear that now
I'm in a whole new world with you
(Now I'm in a whole new world)

Unbelievable sights,
indescribeable feelings
soaring, tumbling, freewheeling,
through an endless diamond sky

A whole new world (don't you dare close your eyes)
a hundred thousand things to see (hold your breath it gets better)
I'm like a shooting star
I've come so far
I can't go back to where I used to be

A whole new world [every turn a surprise]
with new horizons to pursue [every moment red-letter]
I'll chase them anywhere
there's time to spare
let me share this whole new world with you

A whole new world (A whole new world)
tha'ts where we'll be (That's where we'll be)
a thrilling chase
a wonderous place for you and me...

Since i am at novena and i have nothing better to do( actually i have but too lazy) i shall blog!! : )
HAHAH!

Just had a PW meeting not too long ago and i'm glad that everything is going in the right track. Quite thankful for cooperative members who do their part! : ) And what am i doing now? Chatting with Dawn over MSN because she have nothing better to do also besides eating durian! haha! Going down for mass later at CTK! YAY!! : ) Its been a long time eversince i attended weekday mass because of my busy schedule or plain laziness. Maybe i should make my way down earlier to go to the adoration room first.

I have been thinking quite a bit lately and i realised that i have really lost interest in a lot of things and i dont really like the way i am leading my life right now. I just going with the flow, taking one day at a time and not being forward looking which is quite important when your studying. I need to find back a goal in my life which i held onto during my Os. I need that right now so that everything will fall back in place.

I need to learn not to procrastinate and to meet the expectations that i have set for myself regardless academic matter or commitments i have in life. I need to constantly remind myself not to give up and perservere on when faced with obstacles and difficulties. I need to rely on the strength and grace from God and not myself when such obstacles come my way.

I NEED TO LEAN ON THE LOVE AND GRACE OF GOD, KNOWING THAT HE WILL MAKE THINGS FINE WHEN I HAVE TRIED MY BEST! : )

God is great!

MID YEAR EXAM IS FINALLY OVER!!!!!!!! : ) I shant comment on how i feel about the papers and my impending results but whatever the outcome of it all i will accept it and hopefully have the strength and will power to work harder for my promo. I am just thankful and grateful that this week is finally coming to a closure(to me fri is a closure) : ) Friday is always the best day of the whole entire week because i get to go for charismatic to spend time with God, the community of people there and of course disturb certain people! ahahaha!

I wouldnt have gotten through this week without
1)the graces and blessings from God
2)all the amazing and extraordinary angels that he sent
3) Prayers said for me by many wonderful people : )

Without them and the amount of things that they have done for me, i really think i would have died after my first paper! ahaha!!

So heres a GARGANTUAN THANK YOU to all of them especially Cheryl for helping me with Physics. It is impossible to come out of the hall alive today if it werent for you : ) you ROCK!!
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who can grasp your infinite wisdom?
who can fathom the depth of your love?

God thank you for all the experience that you have given me. Through these experiences, be it good or bad, help me to understand and realise that you are with me through it all! Help me to learn from it and grow. : )