Despite being bogged down by all those assignments and exams that are impending and HOPEFULLY coming to an end SOON, i feel very blessed and loved! :) I am constantly reminded of God's love for me through people who i hold dear. Although it IS very tiring and really quite a pain, i certainly do hope i can just persevere on till the very last moment and no matter what the outcome may be, i know i have given my all. Thats my aim for now. To persevere and give my all in all aspect of my life. At least i know I have done what i could and there isnt any regrets!!

*I know its going to be hard and difficult, but you will see me through it all. Wont you?? :)

-I have already lighted a path for you. But with your human eyes, you cannot see it. TURST ME.- GOD

People said you will understand and you're the last to make me lousy and terrible but APPARENTLY the reverse is true. I dont know what to say. Since eons ago, you have told me that you're always there to support me but in the end when things do not go the way it should, you will be the first to shot remarks at me. IT MADE ME FEEL SO USELESS AND DUMB but i guess you just dont realised it. Your words just contradict all the time and i dont know what to make out of it. I dont want to keep on guessing and i dont want to know how you feel abut it. All i want is for you to give me some time. After all, i guess you will never know how I really feel.

All i can say is beneath the cheerful exterior lies a dishearted and broken spirit.

Just when i thought i was calmed down already and ready to face whatever that is ahead of me, A Stupid Conversation with you just crashed my spirit and i'm back to square one again...

Random thought at this point of the night??, day??

-Its so easy to fall but just so hard to pick up. How i wish the reverse is true...-

okay. Anyways just wanna post a thank you message for my dearest friend who helped me edit a 3000 plus report. ahaha!

THANK YOU SO MUCH, MISS CHERYL JOANN LEE!!!!
YOU ROCK!! :D :)

Okay.. despite what i face as mentioned in my earlier post, I'm relieved that i'm no longer kept in suspense and its time i let go and let GOD take over...

God, at mass today, you said through the priest that the only sign we should be seeking for is you. If we are looking for earthly signs, It is not wrong but earthly signs are given to us so that we are more confident of your love f0r us and your faithfulness to us...

I'm really in need of an earthly sign of what to do next. I dont want to repeat the same "mistake" again... Help me to look out for your signs and believe it when i see it. No matter what path you already have in mind for me and no matter how hard it may be, all i ask for is your love and blessings to see me through them safely.

IN ALL THAT I DO, I WILL HONOUR YOU...

*Father, I'm sorry for those words which i've said a few days back. I'm sorry...

Some people...

Some people exercise to remain healthy
Some people exercise to keep fit
Some people exercise to destress
Some people exercise so that they will have a good bod
Some people exercise to reduce the risk of illnesses

Whats my reason for exercising???

To make myself REALLY REALLY EXTREMELY exhausted and tired so i wont be so awake to think of what path i should trod or to make myself very miserable by thinking too much..

SIGH...

I stumble and fall many a time
and find it so hard to pick myself up.
So hard, and so difficult that sometimes i just sink deeper and deeper
However, you never fail to reach your hand in
and you never fail to shower all your love and care on me.
Each time i turn away from you,
you somehow found your way back to my heart
and I know for sure, I can never do without you.
Though the road may seem hard and difficult,
the journey may be unbearable and torturous
The path may not be smooth
BUT all i have to do is to surrender everything to you.
Only then will you be able to work through me,
Only then will i know my purpose and destiny.

HELP ME, LORD, HELP ME...

With nothing in hand
I face away from reality
Wishing i could forget everything
and run towards the other direction...

I really think its the wednesday blue.. I'm feeling it again!! Oh goodness!

-What matters is faith that work through love-