Its good to know that Happiness is a gift from God which means God is still showering his gifts on me. : ) Despite having quite a few things to do and down such a terrible flu and cough, i can say that i'm quite happy inside.

Chirstmas is approaching soon soon soon but why dont I feel that its approaching? I'm leaving Singapore for Chiangmai in less than a month time but i dont feel the excitment either. hahaha Maybe there are more urgent matters to see to first like my much dreaded re test and my Oral Presenstation in less than 2 days! I'm going to pray hard that things will go the way it should go man. I'm going to leave the grades up to God. Doing my best and expecting nothing in return is the best policy to stand by with. :)

i'm thinking of making/doing something that is unique and not so time consuming but i dont know what to make/do. Shall give some thought to it later..

Going to end off with a quote from Aristotle since i'm going to mention himn in my speech!

"Man is a goal seeking animal, His life only has meaning if he is striving and reaching out for his goals" -Aristotle

Name: Pearl
Date: 10/30/2008
Colorgenics Number: 13546207

You have always been on the move seeking affectionate, satisfying and harmonious relationships. Your ultimate goal has been the realisation of an intimate union in which there could be love, self-sacrifice and mutual trust. It has often been said that 'True love is just around the corner' and - if you haven't found it as yet - you possibly soon will.
You are looking for something different. Your imagination has been working overtime and you are seeking adventure - and you'd like to share that adventure, the new experience, with someone like yourself: Imaginative, Enthusiastic and Sensitive.

The way things are, you feel that you are stuck in a rut and there is not much you can do about it. You feel frustrated and inhibited but if you can find a way to let yourself go, you may find that things aren't quite so bad as perhaps you thought they were. One consolation is that since you are an extremely emotional individual, with the right person you may be able to release some of that frustration and tension with some mutual tender loving care.

You are being unduly influenced by the situation that is all around you. You do not like the feeling of loneliness and whatever it is that seems to separate you from others. You know that life can be wonderful and you are anxious to experience life in all its aspects, to live it to the full. You therefore resent any restriction or limitations that are being imposed on you and you insist on going it alone.

You wish to be left in peace... no more conflict and no more differences of opinion. In fact you just don't want to be involved in arguments of any shape or form. All you want is for 'them' to get on with it - and to leave you alone.

It just dawned onto me that being a GOOD Catholic isnt easy at all! But i will constantly strive to improve and change although it will be hard. This will be my long term goal and aim. : )

MT As is tmr! Whether I will be able to make it or not, I leave everything up to God and I will try my very best.

* I will run the race, till I see your face. This is what i will abide to till the end of it all..
God take over and take control.

Eat Eating Eaten

Goodness! I realised i have been eating nothing but Western food!!! Goodness! Imagine the amount of calories!! hahahaha

Wed: Pasta Mania (Sham)/ Macs (Marie)
Thurs: Pizza Hut (Sham. She doesnt eat anything else! :P)
Sun: Cafe Cartel ( Family)
Mon: New York New York (Choir)
Today: Canadian Pizza (Mum)

No wonder i have been craving for Soup!! The Chinese kind of soup. haha. I really wish my mum will cook that soon!! :D

Mother tongue A level is less than 2 days time. SO! everyone shall speak to me in madarin or type in Chinese.. Maybe that way, i'll do better for my MT As! hahahah! wo zhen de yao kao de hao cheng ji!! :)

*God! Thanks for seeing me through everything. :):)

All that I am
All that I have
I lay them down before you O Lord
All my regrets
All my acclaims
The joy and the pain
I'm making them yours

Lord I offer my life to you
Everything I've been through
Use it for your glory
Lord i offer my days to you
Lifting my praise to you
As a pleasing sacrifice
Lord i offer you my life

Things in the past
Things yet unseen
Wishes and dreams that are yet to come true
All of my hopes
All of my plans
My heart and my hands
I lift them to you


* I will cling on to the promise you have made to me....

Despite being bogged down by all those assignments and exams that are impending and HOPEFULLY coming to an end SOON, i feel very blessed and loved! :) I am constantly reminded of God's love for me through people who i hold dear. Although it IS very tiring and really quite a pain, i certainly do hope i can just persevere on till the very last moment and no matter what the outcome may be, i know i have given my all. Thats my aim for now. To persevere and give my all in all aspect of my life. At least i know I have done what i could and there isnt any regrets!!

*I know its going to be hard and difficult, but you will see me through it all. Wont you?? :)

-I have already lighted a path for you. But with your human eyes, you cannot see it. TURST ME.- GOD

People said you will understand and you're the last to make me lousy and terrible but APPARENTLY the reverse is true. I dont know what to say. Since eons ago, you have told me that you're always there to support me but in the end when things do not go the way it should, you will be the first to shot remarks at me. IT MADE ME FEEL SO USELESS AND DUMB but i guess you just dont realised it. Your words just contradict all the time and i dont know what to make out of it. I dont want to keep on guessing and i dont want to know how you feel abut it. All i want is for you to give me some time. After all, i guess you will never know how I really feel.

All i can say is beneath the cheerful exterior lies a dishearted and broken spirit.

Just when i thought i was calmed down already and ready to face whatever that is ahead of me, A Stupid Conversation with you just crashed my spirit and i'm back to square one again...