God, just let this week pass faster. i cant seem to take it anymore. :(

Don't want to feel this way

ARGHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!

I dont want to feel this way but it's impossible for me not too.
There are so many things for me to do on my to do list and yet there are LAST MIN changes which I need to attend to which is almost impossible to re-do because the numbers are just not right. I dont want to point fingers but I'm just superbly pissed off and irritated at certain indiviudual(s).

I feel quite helpless and hopless now looking at the situation yet i know i have to persevere on and go through this arduous process. I hate it but i have too since i was the one that wanted to walk in this path in the first place. Hopefully, i will press on and achieve something at the end of the day.

Lord, please make things right for me. :((((((((
The joy of the Lord shall be mine strength.
No matter how difficult things is going to get and be, i will press on with the help and grace from God.

Help me to help myself and see me through this process, constanly reminding me that in all that i do, i'm doing it for you as well as your for your glory and for no one else. I love you, God! no one can take the place you have in my heart! :)

Learning to Love the hardest to love...

ONLY 12 days, not even a month and I've already taken 2 days off from school because I was and still am sick. I'm tired and extremely exhuasted from school everyday that when my mum called me at 12am to wake up to do some of my work, i responded to her call without me knowing that i've responded. My mum claimed that i sat up and went back to sleep but i didnt even realised that she called me. haha.

The days are getting longer and the nights shorter. Getting less rest and lesser sleep and of course lesser time for myself to let my thoughts run. BUT getting more tired and exhausted as the clock ticks away. I dont know how long i'm able to handle all the expectations that are being thrown at me. I'm expected to do all of them on time and not only on time but do them well.

However, it is only in times like these where i learn not to be dependant on my strength but by the grace from God. I hope i can continue to give my best shot in all my ministeries as well as commitments which i have. Itwill be difficult, long and arduous and when the tough gets going, the going gets tough. Everyday shall be a learning lesson for me.

God, i rest in the thought that you're watching over me and i will willingly give my all for you, just for you! :)

TIME TIME TIME..........

When will time ever slow down for me to catch up??? I really wonder...
I seem/am trying to run faster and at a quicker pace but it doesnt looks like the gap is getting any closer or smaller. In fact, it seems to get wider and bigger each day, almost impossible for me to even catch up and be ahead of it.
I'm still lagging far off, far behind...
SIGHSSSSS

I never knew how blessed and loved i am till i stopped and take a peek back at year 2008.
You have always been there for me.
In all the happy, uplifiting occasions,
In all the tears and sadness,
In all my struggles and worries,
You never left me.

Because you have proven time and time again,
I know i can rest in the thought that you're watching over me.

God, how I yearn to fall deeper in love with you.
I love you!

My equation of the day:

Throat that hurts+Nose that is leaking+Feeling drowsy+ Slight headache+Work not done and completed+ A long day tmr+Prayers not said = CRAP! :(:(

This always have to happen to me before the start of a new school term and year!

I'm forever yours.
Planet Shakers

I give my all to you
Send me and i will go for you
To the ends of the earth
I'll follow after you
I want the world to know
Your love endures forever

Tell me and i'll obey
This is far greater than sacrifice
Trusting you and not myself
Will always lead to blessing
Lord have your way in me
Not my will, yours be done

Here i stand within your presence
Longing for your touch
A thousand days cannot compare
To one day in your courts

Hold me now
And never ever let me go
My jesus, my precious saviour
I'm forever yours

I will worship you forever
I will worship you

Thank you for the cross Lord
Thank you for the price You paid
Bearing all my sin and shame
In love You came
And gave amazing grace

Thank you for this love Lord'
Thank you for your nail pierced hands
Washed me in Your cleansing flow
Now all I know
Your forgiveness and embrace

Worthy is the Lamb
Seated on the throne
Crown You now with many crowns
You reign victorious
High and lifted up
Jesus Son of God
The darling of Heaven crucified
Worthy is the Lamb
Worthy is the Lamb

Its not easy to be me...