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What a Monday I had yesterday and seriously what a tuesday I had today. Just can't wait for the weekend to arrive. I'm tired.

The following quotes are from the book 'The Angel Book' by Karen Goldman

Angels sail through our lives like ships of light visiting us through the portals of our hearts.
An angel is like an arrow of light cutting through the dark.
An angel's wingspan is broad enough to lift the heart of the entire world.
Angels encourage everyone in the direction they really want to go...up.
The warmth of an angel's light can comfort and illuminate the whole world.
The light in children's eyes is the reflection of Heaven peeking through.
Angels are the bright lights in the midst of our lives.


For He shall give his angels charge over thee, to keep thee in all thy ways.~ Psalm 91:11

No matter what the outcome may be, I just hope I will be able to see it through and not back out. To accept the things which I cannot change and to accept whatever the outcome may be. Walking on a very thin thread, praying that I don't fall. Even if I did, the courage to stand back up again..

WHY

The question to ask: Is time within our control? Must we always have a constant race with it and land up getting all frustrated and hurt along the way? Can't we just do things according to the way we prefer? Then again, what is the way I prefer? I have no idea.

Its been quite some time since I felt this way. It may be due to the atmosphere that is getting all tensed up knowing that the end of it is approaching and major decisions have to be made after that. It can also be due to certain individuals who currently evolve around my life or... simply ME. I choose to believe its ME.
Why is it that I still expect so much out of myself knowing that the higher my expectations, the harder I will fall?
Why is it that I still cling on to that notion that everything must go according to plan?
Why am I forcing myself to be more than I can be?
Why can't I be more flexible and less obstinate?
Why am I dwelling in it when I know what is done cannot be reverse. ( Didn't you know life is a one way track, you idiot?? Once you walk the wrong way, you cannot retrace your steps)
Why be a bull when you're not?
Why be someone else when you know you can't!?!
Its because of all these WHY and many others that you're in this mess.

Face it, my mirror image. Certain things have got to change and you can first start by yourself. which translate to ME, MYSELF AND I.

Why is it that I'm still afraid when I knew that it was coming and I had the time to prepare for it???

we mutter and we sputter
we fume and we spurt
we mumble and we grumble
Our feelings get hurt
We can't understand things
Our vision grow dim
When all we need is
A moment with him.

Doubt sees the obstacle
Faith sees the way
Doubt sees the darkest night
Faith sees the day
Doubt dreads to take a step
Faith soars on high
Doubt questions: "Who believes?"
Faith answers: "I."

I know despite of all of the roller coaster rides, I'm blessed.

SIGH

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