Ramblings

I realise I have been rambling about essays or at least my thoughts were about essays in the last 2 post or so. The end of February is really something I can't say I'm looking forward to. March promise nothing but a hectic and tiredsome one. Deadlines, test, presentations and performance. I know this is nothing as compared to what I had to go through before but this time situations and things changes. I dont want to just go through the motion for the sake of going through. I want to do well or more so, I NEED to do well. Everyone has put in so much effort to bring me to where I am today. I can't let all that go to waste. It's really a constant tug of war going through my head. I'm afraid and fearful that I'm not putting in enough effort to hit bullseye or to aim around the rim of it. It is during this moment where I really wanna go running to Him but feel inadequate and to a certain extent, shameful. It seems that I always turn to Him when i need someone to affirm me things are gonna be fine and that He is looking after matters for me so long as I do what I can do. However, I do not place him among my top priorities when things are going well. Its really disgusting to know such are my actions towards Someone who loved me so despite my iniquities. If I were You, I certainly would have abandon this person but thanks to your faithfulness I somehow know that I'm still being watched over by You. Though I know I said this many times, I'm really sorry and I really need You now.

Nuts # 2

Reading TONS of sources for an essay is not good. you dont know if the ideas and words you use are yours or if they are from sources which you have digested. ARGH

NUTS

This is crazy! My inability to churn out proper and coherent sentences as well as my inability to focus and give whatever I've got is drving me bonkers and is making me very ill tempered. This is NOT GOOD!

Win- Brian Mcknight

When you strip me bare and
what surrounds me is silence and emptiness,
it is You i'll run to for comfort and hope,
it'll be You i'll run to for solace and peace.

June!

June seems like a pretty good month to look forward to!
1) End of Trinity College and getting into Uni( HOPEFULLY! keeping my fingers cross)
2) my first birthday away from Singapore but thankfully I'll have the company of a friend who so kindly arrange her schedule to be down here in Melb so I wouldnt have to spend my birthday alone.
3) Jaslyn is coming!
4) Cass is coming!
5) HX will return the following month! :)

For all these reasons now, It is more than sufficient to conclude that June will be a pretty good month this year. Hopefully, more exciting things will happen in June! For now, ace all the exams and essay!

GO PEARL!!!

You wanna give up BUT its worth the fight!

slow system.

Just when everything, well.. most things are going rather alright, a sudden change gotta happen. It came and is going to go in just a flash. Seriously, my system cant take adapt that quickly. Its so sudden... but I wish you all the best, my friend and I hope you get well soon. :)

Ahhh crap! why do I feel down now?? :(

When we don't mention a thing about it or remain indifferent about it, it doesnt mean that we don't struggle with it..