oh no! i hav not been blogging for quite some time! School is really taking up lots and lots of my time and i end roughly round 6 everyday which means i am unable to go for evening mass.
The fire in me is dying slowly, second by second, day by day and i just cant find any solution to keep this fire strong. It really dissapoints me to know that i am that weak and useless in a way... I want a change, I want a renewal and i definitely want the flame/fire within me to be brighter,stronger and more steadfast than before.. I want you back in my life, God! i really want!
i was blog surfing again(as usual) and i came across one of my friend's blog and she wrote this "A lack of unhappiness doesn't necessary mean happiness". (I am not going to reveal the person's dentity! haha! cause i feel that person rather remain as an anonynumous figure. hahaha) This really struck me.. It described what i was exactly feeling for the past few weeks till now. I dont feel the peace and happiness i used to have inside of me. Nothing depressing happened to send my world crashing down, nothing near that happened but the thing is i just dont feel happy. i think its because of ever increasing workload and the lack of time to do things i really love(Major contributing factor). I guess i really have to grow up and overcome this phrase of life and regain my purpose, my goal and most importantly my faith. it seems to have weaken ALOT!!
I was at charismatic yesterday and one phrase that struck me is " I will give you the strength to go the extra mile" this really comforted and assured me that i am not alone and if i feel i am stuck and i cant continue
All i can say is despite having an empty heart, mind, soul, i am grateful to our ever loving God for he will make straight a path and walk through it all with me.. All i have to do is to surrender and have more faith! : ) I LOVE YOU GOD! I REALLY DO! help me take take this one single step again.
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