I've Had Enough

I'VE HAD ENOUGH! I NEVER FELT SO PRESSURISED AND STRESSED UP IN 2 DAYS IN A ROW IN MY WHOLE ENTIRE LIFE(Besides Last year).
I wish to tell you this. I've had enough for now. I need to study and being so traumatise each and everyday is not gonna help me with my studies.. I dont need this unnecessay stress. I dont. and I dont derserve it.

You can't expect a beginner to do well and you keep reminding me that I'm one. SO WHY PUT ME UNDER SO MUCH PRESSURE AND STRESS??\
When accidents happen, no one is gonna blame you but everyone is gonna point fingers at me.
When accidents happen, you wont understand the guilt I face and the fear I face.
When things go wrong, You're gonna blame me too for not being catious and for not listening.
When you raise your voice at me because what I did was risky, you said you fear I will get into an accident.
SO WHY PUT BOTH YOU AND ME THROUGH THIS?
DON'T YOU GET IT?? I'M JUST A BEGINNER. You cant expect someone who is a beginner to be doing advance stuff.
Just LEAVE ME ALONE and things will be okay.