EEEEEEEEEEEEkkkkkkkk!! I really hate doing geog essays!! argh! stupid earthquakes!! why cant they simply put as the natural forces of the earth or some creation of God, why must we go and study them!???????!??????!!! stupid!!!!!! how will it benefit us?? appreciation of nature??

SSSSSSIIIIIIGGGGGGGGGGGHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!

hahahaha! actually i think its okay just that i have not started and i'm sleepy! sigh! who to blame? only me myself and i for procrastinating this piece of work! : ( : (

ok guess i better stop complaining and get back to it.

have a great night people!
: )

AHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!! I'm feeling so sleepy!!! why why why!???

1) there is something wrong with my body system

2)i'm really lack of sleep since i sleep an average of 4 hrs or less a day which is not enough for me!! hahah!

sigh!! thank goodness PI is over and i handed in my final piece of work today!! YAY!!
Council election will be held tmr during assembly and after this i will be free!! Not that i wasnt free before but campaigning and stuff is really no joke man! i'm just praying for things to turn out right and for him to take over!! I think the journey becomes very enjoyable when you dont have to worry about anything because you know that things are being taken care of and there is someone out there somewhere looking after you!! : )

Oh Oh!! YES! i was suppose to blog about healing rally held on the 25th!
Healing rally was superbly super!! I think everyone was quite disappointed with the attendance at first but we sort of realise the reason why only these amount of people turn up. It made a lot of sense! : )
the Holy Spirit was there right from the beginning. Even as i was doing laptop duty( i screwed it up initially. opps! ), i could worship in the Spirit and i could feel his presence ever so strongly and greatly! : )

Alright. i will blog more about it when i have the time and when i feel less sleepy!!
Now its back to 1000 word geog essay which i have no clue on how to do it! how brilliant!

And........
ALL THE BEST TO THE NUS STUDENTS(Godma, Cheryl, Justin, Carmen, Liz.. etc) FOR YOUR EXAMS!!! : )
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God, thank you for guiding me through each day
As much i am tired and weary,
you gave me this inner strength to persevere on.
These past few weeks has really been tiring and challenging.
Without you by my side
I know i wouldnt come this far and
I would have just collaspe halfway and given up.
But you guided and walk through this journey with me,
always reminding me that you are always there
and you love me.
Lord, i entrust and surrender the rest of this year into your hands
Help me to understand that obstacles i face is make me a stronger person
and help me never to loss sight of you.

DADDY, I love you!! : )

I went for another food spree again today at Furama Hotel! goodness!! been eating eating eating eating! but i must add that the food there is not too bad! The pastries there just make me extremely gay!! : ) : ) i think eating is one of the best way you can socialise with people however you just have to bear the brunt of it all which is leaving you fatter and rounder than before, hahah!

I was really happy that my Grandma enjoyed lunch there. afterall the meal was meant to celebrate her english birthday today since she celebrated her chinese one on the 30th. Although i hardly say this but she really mean a lot to me. Eversince my grandpa whom i was exceptionally close to passed away, she has taken up both roles of being a grandpa as well as a grandma, leaving me very little reasons to grieve over the death of my grandpa. : )

God always bless my grandma and keep her healthy, free from worries and always keep her in your sight!: )

HAPPY BIRTHDAY AH-MA!!

I LOVE YOU! : )

Diamond cannot be polished without friction. Gold cannot be purified without fire. Good people go through trials, but don't suffer. With that experience their life becomes better, not bitter.

Activity gets you busy. But productivity gets you results. Activity consumes time. Productivity frees it.

i finally have some time to think about random stuff!(ive completed PW, hope its up to my teacher's expectations) YAY! i love thinking about random stuff. makes me superly happy.
As i was reading people's blog/chatting with people/catching up with them over dinner and comparing their life with mine, i suddenly felt that what i've gone through the whole entire week is seriously meager compared to theirs. Its just that i'm not fully untilising my time to the fullest. i could have gone past last week feeling happier and better but i choose to dwell on the fact that i didnt have enough sleep and i am tired and because of this, that week was just horrendous.

I think life is all about perception. How you view certain things to be and how you try to conform yourself to suit others just to make them happy but leaving yourself in total misery. If we choose to dwell on the negative aspect in our lives, than we will never be happy and unable to move on but if we choose to dwell on the positive side, things would seem much smoother and easier to get by. its really amazing how your perceptions and how you view things to be can either make/break your day.however, having known this fact for years already, i still fall into that pitthole, always thinking of how bad or how rubbish my day is and then i will start grumbling and complaning which will thus leave me lesser time to try and make my day a better one.

But as i said i am fortunate enough because i have people who will pull me up and out before i start falling deeper. And i must say i am thankful and grateful!

LIKE finally its the weekend!!! I've been on my feet for 24 7 since mon! goodness, I wondered how I manage to survive this week. It must be that invisible force that always pushes me on when i'm too tired to carry on and persevere. This gentle yet affirming force will always make my day alright!! : )

During this week, i 'm extremely grateful to a few people who made my week more manageable and easier to go through. Without them, the week would have been torturous, unbearable and downright miserable.. really love that few people!!: )

Charismatic on fri was excellent! different from the rest of the session i've attended so far. We prayed for/(together with) the person on the side of us. Guess who was beside me? It was Godma! hahah! it so happened that i was on duty today and so yeah i was beside her : ) i really felt the gentleness and power of God during that moment. really undescribable.. : ) : )
Went for dinner with C. ( i know i copyrighted this again! ) and had a wonderful time chatting with her. something which i've not done in a long time! YAY! YAY! YAY!!

And of course my sat night was good too! :) i went for dinner at Fish and Co. with my ever beautiful and beloved cousin JUSTINANICOLECHOWXIUTING who sunddenly so suddenly appeared in church. It was an inpromtu decision made. We had a feast that was meant for a King! goodness!!hahha. The best part was besides the tasty and mouth watering food we had, we had the company of each other. Something which is more important than the food! YAY!

ok.... for now, i'm back to PW! AGAIN!! AH!!!!!
oh before that,
GODMA! if you still read this hardly ever updated blog,
Just wanna say take care and please rest more!
you really need it! : )
Will be praying for you!
Get well soon!

And to GOD! THANKS FOR EVERTHING!! : ) : ) : )

you know that i love you
you know that i want to
know you so much more
more than i have before

These words are from my heart
These words are not made up
I will live for you
I am devoted to you!

king of majesty, i have 1 desire
just to be with you my Lord
Just to be with you my Lord!

JESUS YOU ARE THE SAVIOUR OF MY SOUL
and for ever and ever i'll give my praises to you! : )

I love GOD!!1 i really do!! : ) i felt an immense happiness today for dont know what reason. He is really watching over me from above and everywhere. It was so silly of me to not realise this and complain and grumble over the fact that he is nowhere in sight or i cant feel his strong presence. Today is the day that i felt peace, real peace in my heart. : ) Thank you God for watching over me and i'm rested in that fact. : )

I realise how dumb i can be! hahaha!
Anways with regards to my last post, about happiness and stuff, i realise where happiness lies and what happiness is. The answer to this is so clear cut and so direct and i somehow seem to have known it but just never pay attention to it. AND....

HAPPINESS IS THE LORD!

This is a song which we sang for choir today. i remember editing and looking through this song today and last night after i wrote my previous post but it just didnt sink into me that happiness is the Lord. The time where i realised that the answer to my question is during Eucharistic Prayer and i was thinking about my previous post and suddenly right in front of my vision was the song happiness is the Lord.

God really work marvels!! He knew exactly how i was feeling and all my thoughts he knows that all before i could even put them into sentences. This is how great he is..

Anyways here is the lyric to the song : Happiness is the Lord

Happiness is to know the Saviour,
Living a life within his favour,
Having a change in my behaviour
Happiness is the Lord.

Happiness is a new creation:
Jesus and me in close relation,
having a part in his salvation.
Happiness is the Lord.

Chorus:
Real joy is mine,
no matter if teardrops start:
I've found the secret:
Its Jesus in my heart!

Happiness is to be forgiven,
living a life thats worth the living
taking a trip that leads to heaven.
Happiness is the Lord (X3)

oh no! i hav not been blogging for quite some time! School is really taking up lots and lots of my time and i end roughly round 6 everyday which means i am unable to go for evening mass.

The fire in me is dying slowly, second by second, day by day and i just cant find any solution to keep this fire strong. It really dissapoints me to know that i am that weak and useless in a way... I want a change, I want a renewal and i definitely want the flame/fire within me to be brighter,stronger and more steadfast than before.. I want you back in my life, God! i really want!

i was blog surfing again(as usual) and i came across one of my friend's blog and she wrote this "A lack of unhappiness doesn't necessary mean happiness". (I am not going to reveal the person's dentity! haha! cause i feel that person rather remain as an anonynumous figure. hahaha) This really struck me.. It described what i was exactly feeling for the past few weeks till now. I dont feel the peace and happiness i used to have inside of me. Nothing depressing happened to send my world crashing down, nothing near that happened but the thing is i just dont feel happy. i think its because of ever increasing workload and the lack of time to do things i really love(Major contributing factor). I guess i really have to grow up and overcome this phrase of life and regain my purpose, my goal and most importantly my faith. it seems to have weaken ALOT!!

I was at charismatic yesterday and one phrase that struck me is " I will give you the strength to go the extra mile" this really comforted and assured me that i am not alone and if i feel i am stuck and i cant continue

All i can say is despite having an empty heart, mind, soul, i am grateful to our ever loving God for he will make straight a path and walk through it all with me.. All i have to do is to surrender and have more faith! : ) I LOVE YOU GOD! I REALLY DO! help me take take this one single step again.

You're my Ice kachang
by the Kopi Kat Klan

You always say I’m unromantic
Don’t know ways to make a girl tick
I must say you’re right about it
For I am truly unpoetic

But I am not dumb
And not that stupid
It’s just that sometimes brain not working
So I didn’t sleep
Used my little wit
To write this little bit (Yai yai yai yai yai yai yai…)

You are my ice kachang (ice kachang)I
n this tropical heat (my heart melts for you…)Y
ou are my favourite dessert (ooh la la)
So inviting, so sweet
Would you like to bo bo cha cha (cha cha cha)
Come along and dance with me (shoo bee doo wap shoo bee doo wap)
You are my love
My tutti fruitti
Someone I’d like to eat

Every time when we go dating
First the movies then go shopping
You always hint I’m unexciting
It has been so since the beginning

But I am not dumb
And not so stupid
‘Tis just that sometimes I’m a blur king
So I didn’t eat
Used my little wit
To write this little bit (Yai yai yai yai yai yai ya…)

You are my ice kachang (ice kachang)
In this tropical heat (my heart melts for you)
You are my favourite dessert (ooh la la)
So inviting, so sweet
Would you like to bo bo cha cha (cha cha cha)
Come along and dance with me (shoo bee doo wap shoo bee doo wap)
For you are my love
My one atapchee
Someone I’d like to eat

Each time I look into your eyes
I see some pretty colours, very nice
I wouldn’t mind paying any price
I’m kachang over you (My sago honeydew)

Hope
Emily Dickinson

Hope is the thing with feathers
That perches in the soul
And sings the tune--without the words,
And never stops at all,

And sweetest in the gale is heard;
And sore must be the storm
That could abash the little bird
That kept so many warm.

I've heard it in the chillest land,
And on the stangest sea;
Yet, never in extremity,
It asked a crumb of me.